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A Year Reflecting 2020, 2021 Hopes and Plans

During the events of 2020 with the Worldwide Pandemic of COVID-19 effecting everything. So many things have happened during that year. From going through the death of my Step-Father, the hardships of retail during Pandemic, and more. Its definitely been a very stressful year for me. But I do look into the future of 2021 and beyond.

My Mental Health is what I very rarely talk about, for the most part I have been a very private person about it. None of my friends know the whole story of my stress which almost broke during 2020. My work life has been extremely stressful with my last job at the Casino to being let go and having to find another job. To only find it in retail being an Essential Worker in a Grocery Store. Working as a front-line worker dealing with so much shenanigans and bullshit from not only the customers, but also work shenanigans of trying to get through the day.

During that moment my family was dealing with a very serious medical issue of my Step-Father having Cancer. From 2019-2020 I slowly watched my Step-Father become worst and worst. Including having emergency surgery to cut off his legs to the knee’s for a last ditch effect to save him. During PAX EAST 2020 my Step-Father’s health and family stress was constantly in my mind. I wished I could of spent more time with him and getting to know him more. Because at the end of the day he started to become more of a Dad to me than my actual Biological Father. He would check up on me, ask me about my day, and more. Due to COVID I wasn’t allowed to see him much in the Hospital due to risk of exposure from anything since his Immune System was shot. Its almost been a year since his passing, I still have his Obituary saved on my Phone including the last message he left on my phone.

Now with 2021 already halfway into the year, things have been going up and down a lot. Work has been stressful lately but finally things seem to calm down more. I am still committed in growing my content for both YouTube and Twitch. I am going to commit to releasing 3-4 videos per week with a schedule setup to help keep the course. I’m also setting plans to attend PAX East Online for 2021 and attending RetroWorld Expo in November to showcase on my platforms. While I’m still an Essential Worker on the front-lines of Retail, I am going to take my health more seriously. I already got my COVID Vaccine shots with my Card filled out. I will slowly begin working out again and doing more walks around the neighborhood to enjoy the fresh air and sun.

2020 took alot from me and my Mental Health has been pushed to its limited. I just hope 2021 will finish off with a year of better memories and experience with more to come in the years to come.

Why I moved back to TwitchTV

Recently I have decided to move back to TwitchTV very suddenly, I have been streaming on Mixer since late August in 2019. While I met some really awesome people there including Streamers and others. I was getting tired and annoyed that in my opinion Mixer has been stagnating.

I decided to move to Mixer because I was getting annoyed that TwitchTV features and system were getting outdated and the community has been DRAMA central. Of course it didn’t help that rules were broken and enforcement on said rules were weak or really out there. I thought to myself Mixer seemed to be new and refreshing, a great community, good features, and new upcoming features to make it better. Plus Microsoft has signed up Ninja and Shroud from Twitch to the Platform. But after awhile, the honeymoon period ended and I realized MIxer was becoming the one that is stagnating.

My friend told me a saying “Competition Breeds Excellence.” TwitchTV was definitely feeling the heat with not only Mixer but also newcomer Facebook Gaming and YouTube re-organizing itself with its Gaming and Streaming options. Twitch finally updated and improved its features for its Creators, updated and enforce its rules more seriously, and all around seems to be heading in the right direction. Mixer on the other hand has not had the same push. The FTL Low Latency Streams which was an edge for the Platform is now a standard with every other platform. Also one annoying feature or lack-there-of is Clips. Now Clips on Mixer is still in BETA and only available to Mixer Partners. So everyone else have to use 3rd Party Sites or Software to capture their favorite moments to share them. Which is really annoying since Twitch had shown to make it simple and easy to use, and of course anyone can use it. Microsoft was pushing hard to get the Platform out there and did ALOT for it, but now it seems its not doing much with it at all.

Also another thing that I was hoping for is Mixer’s growth was going to be rapid and huge. But it’s still haven’t even seen that. While having popular Content Creators like Ninja and Shroud being on the platform and their communities coming along. It doesn’t mean its a continual growth. Mixer still only have a small slice of the Streaming Pie out there. While Twitch is over-saturated at times with Creators and Content, there is tons of content to consume atleast. For instance I am a Partner with the game Squad, on Twitch there are a variety of Streamers that stream the game both small time streamers to big name popular ones. But on Mixer, barely anyone else stream it other than myself and a handful of others. So its really hard to grow a community on a game that brings little interest on Mixer unlike Twitch where you have a better chance. Also StreamLabs did a showcase on data of how Twitch, YouTube, and Mixer were doing which Mixer still only had a small slice of the pie and the Data was showing things starting to taper off.

I know my leave on Mixer was sudden, especially since I just hit 100 Followers. But I should of waited more for Mixer to see the data on how the platform itself is growing. I should of also waited more to see how committed Microsoft was as well. Remember that Mixer used to specifically be a platform for Xbox One users but decided (and rightfully so) to be more multi-console/PC streaming site. But the Mixer app is still only available on Xbox One still and not the PS4. I just hope Mixer doesn’t go the way of the Zune.

The Costs of Being a Content Creator

                Being a Content Creator whether you’re a YouTuber creating Videos, a Streamer on TwitchTV/Mixer, and more. It can all come at a cost but not with your wallet. But with your Physical and Mental Health. It should not be ignored; you need to take care of yourself and prevent the burnout because it’s all too real.

                Being a Content Creator can be incredible demanding, it all depends how much you are dedicated and passionate for. Great Content requires passion and dedication for your craft, but it also takes a lot of time working on it. Let’s look at a Youtuber for example, they need to not only plan out what games they want to play, but also record, edit, render, upload, and then promote and market their content. That’s if everything goes to plan, sometimes you need to re-edit a video because of an editing mistake, re-render a video because it failed to render, maybe even throw out a record because it wasn’t up to your standards. There is a lot of things that can go wrong. Let’s look at a Streamer, they have to plan out what they want to play and figure out will this game get more potential viewers to their stream? Also, they have to ensure they’re overlays and alerts are working, their equipment including microphones and website is all set, and pray their Internet or PC decides to stop working. Sometimes they’re internet goes down and cannot stream, sometimes their PC is acting up, sometimes they make mistakes that will cost them hugely. People need to understand that A LOT can go wrong trying to maintain and achieve higher quality content.

                Let’s look at the Physical aspect of things, it can take A LOT of energy to record/stream content because of your Persona but also takes energy to editing, figuring things out, and more. People think that Streaming or Recording content can be easy, it’s not. People put in A LOT of energy making their streams and videos more enjoyable. People can be recording videos for content for 4-8hours per day and streamers can stream on average at least 4-8 hours per day. It’s honestly basically a full-time job at times. And its even worst because that are many Content Creators working full time jobs of 40 hours or more a week. So, when they create content its only adding more pressure and draining their system even more. I do admit I feel a little jealous when there are Content Creators out there that don’t work full-time, etc. because it means they can put more concentration and effort while those of us are trying to keep at it. And that’s just creating the content, there is still promoting and marketing their content. Which can be Social Media posts, attending local events, or going to Conventions to promote their Channels/Brands. Take time to relax the body, do Yoga, play a sport, get up and take a nice walk or jog. Make sure you get enough sleep each day, atleast 6 hours a day to help re-charge the body. Remember to keep hydrated and ensure you get enough Vitamins and nutrients each day to help keep your body going.

                Now something equally or even more important is Mental Health. I’m not going to lie Content Creating can be an incredibly stressful hobby/job to do. This passionate hobby/job that Content Creators have is a 2-Sided coin. You always see the glamour of the popular Content Creators, or the Rising Stars, etc. But you never see the costs of it, the pain we go through, the stress we endure, and the breakdowns we have. I’m not going to lie when I say I thought about out right stopping Content Creating because of the added stress in my life. I have seen my friends as Content Creators stopping it due to Drama effecting their Mental Health. The problem is that Content Creators need to take a break and slow down at times. People think streaming for 6-8 hours plus day after day or creating 2-3 videos on YouTube day after day is the only way to succeed and its not. Quality over quantity every time so people will make a lot of content stressing out to only find it didn’t do much to add. Listen, you need to have days off being a Content Creator, you need to take Vacations, if you need a Personal Day off take it. Your Mental Health is highly important and sadly there have been Content Creators doing a lot of things that self-harm themselves to coop with the issues.

                I think people wanting be Content Creators have this idea that they are destined for greatness, or they will achieve the status of the most popular creators. Content Creating is becoming incredibly populated with so many Creators out there, which means a lot more competition to go up against because at the end of the day there are those that are going to rise, those that stagnate, and those that won’t get anywhere. It’s the norm of being a Content Creator, not everyone is going to be successful like Markiplier or Pewdiepie on YouTube. Or Streamers like Ninja, Shroud, or Anne Munition. You have to keep yourself grounded so if your video didn’t get you the views you think it would get, or the stream didn’t get many viewers you won’t feel more worst than need be. This market is always changing, what’s the next big game going to be to showcase, what indie game is going to get a spotlight that you can ride in on, what content creators can I network with that will be a healthy friendship and relationship with content. More time and effort to put in for a gamble of success.

                People will always see the success of major Content Creators for YouTube videos and Streamers for TwitchTV/Mixer. But they don’t see the costs that it took to get them there. They don’t see the costs of physical/mental pain they endure every day to keep at it. Content Creators need to take things slow and pace themselves. They need to take time off for themselves with days off, take a week or two long plus vacation, etc. Its ok to take a break, there are many Content Creators out there including myself that need it. Its our life, we only get one shot at this so let’s make sure we don’t need to keep adding the stress in our lives even more.

Seeing Content Creators come and go.

Being a Content Creator has both its ups and downs. I met some really great people along the way, had some great experiences, and keep rising more and more. But I often think about those who didn’t make it, my friends that stopped making content, Creators I’m a huge fan of but stopped, and more. I feel alone at times because it feels like there is no one else left. I make new friends, but at the same time I think about how long they will last. Content Creating is becoming a lot harder because so many creators are getting into it, only to have just as many if not more leave it too.

                I have been creating content for YouTube since 2007 with my older YouTube Accounts. One reason why I got into it was my passion for Gaming. Eventually I got inspired to get a DSLR Camera because of watching Cosplay Music Videos. I have seen YouTube changing throughout the years too with not only its UI and layout, but also its Ad Revenue Changes and Partnership Minimum Increases. I am extremely thankful for my fans and friends that cheered me on to keep creating content. Knowing that there are folks out there that enjoy my content helps me keep going. My YouTube Channel is currently 7 years old and already made over 1,000 videos for it.

                I have made tons of friends and had some amazing experiences including attending major Conventions, Expos, and Events. But it always saddens me that the friends I made that also make Content, at times eventually stop all together. One of my close IRL friends started a YouTube Channel, he had something going but eventually stopped when his potential and channel was ready to grow. Even with my other friends , I cheered them on hoping to arrive in the top together, but through various reasons whether be IRL stuff like work/school or Drama related issues on the Platform my friends just stopped because of it. I have seen channels go down because of Drama. Even now I made friends with some awesome Content Creators but I cannot shake the feeling on how long they will last. Granted some will last longer than others but I understand how hard this can be and seeing only little return with low views or follower count doesn’t help. The Burnout is all too true in this area. One of the main reasons why I started to do Cosplay Music Videos I got inspired by a YouTuber but he stopped it all and took down all his CMV’s. But I always cheer for other’s success and hope they make it out there and still keep their dedication and passion for as long as they can.

                Being a Content Creator has changed and it’s becoming harder and harder to keep up or keep content fresh. Back in the day I remember 480P Resolution for videos was the norm and having 720P/1080P Resolution was uncommon for YouTube. Now 1080P is the Norm while 2K/4K is uncommon, eventually that will be the norm. Creating Content is becoming more and more expensive if you want more quality. There is now even a market dedicated for Content Creators, Companies have definitely taken notice and starting to advertise their products to Creators like myself. You also have Channels that has a Full Team dedicated to making daily content similar to a TV Studio making content. So Content Creators have been getting together to create more quality/diverse content together. It’s hard for a Solo Creator to make as much Quality Content vs a Full Team. Even Partnerships are harder to obtain and keep. YouTube has been raising its minimum requirements for its Partnership. Also Ad Revenue wise for YouTube has been hurt since the “ADocalpyse” and Creators have been looking at more Platforms like TwitchTV or sites like Patreon to earn extra income. Plus with so many Creators out there it’s hard to create a Personality that isn’t copying another Popular One. Creating Content might seem easy looking in from the outside, but it’s totally a different story on the inside.

                It’s always a weird feeling seeing the group of Content Creators that started around my time get smaller and smaller. I have seen great success with others and extremely happy for them. But seeing so many stop for variety of reasons and most are completely understandable while the burnout is all too real and people looking to get into this need to understand it can be stressful and tiring. I hope to see more content creators having success and will help do my best to help them on their journey. But time will reveal all. Eventually I myself will stop eventually, I just hope I can keep the fire of my passion going for a long time and go out bright as ever.

New Partnerships and Looking into the Future

For those of you who haven’t already known I am now officially part of the Offworld Industries Creative Partner Program for Squad. I’ve been a huge fan of this early access game and originally one of the Kickstarter Backers as well. This Partnership will include more content aimed at Squad for both my YouTube Gaming video content as well as streams on TwitchTV/Mixer. I also like to give huge thanks to Offworld Industries for providing Keys of Squad for me to give out during my Memorial Day Charity for Stack-Up Organization. Which I am happy to say raised about $275 to help out the organization.

Squad - https://joinsquad.com/

Offworld Industries - https://www.offworldindustries.com/

I will also be looking into future partnerships and also potential sponsors throughout my Content Creator Career. I want to build more brigades to more Game Developers and Publishers but also other Content Creators as well. I look more for friendships, building bridges with friendships in mind builds a much stronger bond and sometimes you never know who your next best friend will be.

Iyashikei Partnership Announcement

Now the big Announcement as many of you may already now know is the Partnership with Iyashikei. A website dedicated to the Otaku Fandom including Anime and Conventions.

What can you expect from this Partnership with Iyashikei?

The exclusive content can be found on both Iyashikei’s Website and Youtube Channel. The Podcast for NTR Radio I will be a Guest Host atleast once a month for the Podcast. This is definitely going to be a great opportunity for those who love and enjoy Otaku culture, or is just getting into it.

For those fearing that I will slow down my content on my Youtube Channel, TwitchTV Streams, and Website don’t worry. I will still create content geared towards Anime, Conventions, Cosplays, and more on my YouTube Channel.

Above all else, the new year is starting off with great promise.

Let’s see where the road will lead.

Content Changes for 2019

As 2018 comes to a close, 2019 aims to be even a bigger year for this Geeky Panda. With that there will be changes, new additions and updates to my Content on all Platforms.

TWITCHTV

First off I am very happy how far I’ve come for TwitchTV. When I started to get back into streaming, to the Content Creators I’ve met, the Fans that have been coming in, I am very happy with everything. Of course though Twitch is VERY HARD to get a foothold in now a days, especially since there can be a variety of Content Creators out there in a number of fields. The sad thing is that its still hard to search for Content Creators to see the kind of content you want, and it basically promotes who ever has the highest viewers will get more in the spotlight. With that I am modifying my schedule for only Thursday and Friday nights at 8PM / 2000HR EST. Reason being is I work a full time job and create content for my YouTube Channel. There will be Special Events as well for Twitch and including certain Saturday Night Streams as well throughout the new year.

I will also include building a better quality stream as far as better Overlays, Camera Options, and more.

YOUTUBE CHANNEL

As I am very close to hitting my 3,000 Subscriber Goal for my YouTube Channel I am very happy how far I have come. I have been mixing in different kinds of games and content in the Gaming, Anime, Convention, and Geek worlds out there. There will be more different kinds of content in the coming future including but not limited to,

  • More Anime Figure Unboxings

  • More Let’s Plays where I finish the Game

  • More Personal VLOG videos

  • More Content Creator Collaberations

  • And More

With the 10 Month Major Convention Time Off I will still be going to conventions in FALL of 2019 and smaller conventions during that time. So you will still expect to see convention content. I will also go through my old video files to upload never before seen videos too.

DISCORD

My Discord Community has also been slowly growing. With that I have been editing and making changes to update the discord with new rules, new sections, and more.

MERCHANDISE

In 2019 I will plan on finally moving to merchandise sales for The Geeky Panda Brand. At first these will includes T-Shirts and other Clothing. I am hoping for a soft-launch in mid-late Spring with full launch in Summer Time. Though inventory will be limited it will be a start. I will also look into Pins as well.

MAJOR ANNOUNCEMENT JANUARY 1st, 2019

There will be MAJOR Announcement on Jan 1st of next year. I cannot say the details now but the ball is definitely rolling and alot is going on behind the scenes.

2018 Draws Closer to an End

With 2018 drawing ever closer, its always a good time to reflect on what has happened.

For the past few months I had a blast attending a variety of Conventions all throughout the year. This has to be the most I attended ever in 1 year's time. With PAX East always being a favorite of mine to attend, while Anime Boston is a great place to meet up with friends. There has been smaller conventions like ComiConn that seems to be getting alittle better but seems alot is against it since TerrifiCon was amazing and the Expo Center at Mohegan Sun Casino will guarantee they are here to stay.  Even then I have atleast 2 more conventions to attend, Retro World Expo which is next weekend shows great promise and it will be the first year I am sharing a booth with my good friend TimeEnforcer Anubis promoting our respective content. Also the last convention of the year will be AnimeNYC, a major Anime Convention that has great potential to be the biggest on the East Coast.

While conventions are always awesome to attend and make content for my YouTube Channel, my Youtube and Twitch channels have seem to be growing themselves. My YouTube channel is finally closing in on 3,000 Subscribers but has over 1.1 Million Total Views which is insane. I am glad that my hard work is paying off and my channel is growing. Twitch I also have started putting more and more effort into. I actually looked into other alternative Streaming sites but concluded that TwitchTV is the best way to promote/provide streaming content for. While my channel maybe small I will still keep moving forward. Plus I love interacting with other streamers on there helping each other out.

There is going to be more content coming out soon for both YouTube and TwitchTV, I have many ideas and content I want to put in place. I am seriously happy where I am at right now with both but I am always looking to refine, improve, and add to my content for people to watch and enjoy. Seriously, thank you for those who supported me, watched/enjoyed my content, and more.

You all are awesome wonderful people and when the chips are down, believe in the Panda that believes in YOU!

2018 is Looking to be a Good Year for the Panda!

As 2017 is slowly coming to an end with it being November and all.I am already looking into the New Year for 2018 including a couple of key things that I want to do; both for the Website and YouTube Channel. I'm not going to lie it will cost a good bit of money but that means it gets me to my goals ever closer. 

As far as YouTube goes I recently picked up a Nintendo Switch and already busy recording Let's Plays for Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild. For awhile I refuse to do any Nintendo content due to Nintendo's backward logic when it comes to YouTubers. But I grew up on Nintendo and lately been stressed both mentally and physically. So I now own a Switch and planning to build a game collection for it. On top of that I plan on building a new PC to do more PC Gaming content as well. I doing a collaboration project for a Web-series. I can't say anything about the details now but its in the works and it will be full of Geeky content. 

For Twitch I am starting to Stream more and get back into things. I am also adjusting my schedule to help better understand when are good times to stream vs balancing my life, work, etc. I did my first Extra Life stream and for 8 hours I am not going to lie I give the Streamers major props for doing 8-24HR stream. Still next year I will be doing much more streams and providing additional content outside my Youtube Channel and Website.

My Photography/Videography gear will be doing a huge upgrade for next year. I will be picking up the Canon T7i with new lens, lighting equipment, green screen, and more. I am long over due for an upgrade and my T3i has definitely served me well. I will still plan on using it as a secondary but I do feel like the time is right for an upgrade for next year. I plan on using the new gear hopefully by CTGAMERCON and Anime Boston to start with.

I also have a few things I want to do myself and spread into but I won't say anything for now until I got something going. Still next year will be a good year and I plan on making the most of it.